you aren't a lesson

they say you get that one
who will show you
what loss truly is
but I have met loss
I have spent nights
with it cradling my
sleepless body
I have tasted it on
the lip of a clear glass
I have made love with it
in a downtown studio apartment
I have carved it into every
bathroom stall I spent
the night praying in
please don’t be a lesson
I have already learned once before
and am still trying to recover from